Life has come to a place where we have chose between choices and I have made really bad choices in the past which has badly affected me. Again I dont know whether it has badly affected which is a relative term and there is always a other side. I mean "road not taken". Anyhow life is great and I feel happy for whatever happened.
Now its time to make a decision whether I am going to stay in my company or not. I am in that part of my career where I am bored of the work that I do which I was struggling to do some 12 months back.I learnt a lot of things from this company. true I like the people in this company but not the work. they cant also help it as thats the only work available here.
Now now I am at a place where I am a big guy in the company i have regnition from everyone in this company and they want me to travel onsite. Now the problem is that I dont have patience. There are no big projects at present. I dont see any new project coming in the near future.
But ya there may be a cool project which is in the pipeline. But I am not ready to wait. because I am not sure whether I will land in the right project. Future is not clear but present is clear.
Anyway I am going to attend interview for another company. I think I will probably get placed there and lets think after getting placed in that.
You may ask why ? "You should always be prepared to leave ur company" Ya till last year I was doing just the job that they wanted me to do. I learned a lot and afterwards got bored with that. But with this interviews it has become more interesting. I started to learn Technically many things and stared to learn.
I see myself becoming confident of my technical ability nowadays. I think this is taking my life to a new interesting level. I like it and I think this will improve me. So I have decided to learn things outside my company and lets develop ourselves for bigger challenges.
Ya Interviews and this job search is what is making my life interesting. which would have been bored by this routine work. I have this inertia problem I cant stop working after friday evening and I dont want to go to work on monday morning. I think the latter is normal while the former is not. I can do this obring thing innlife for even 2 days.
So I have decided to improve myself and the motivation would be the interviews scheduled for me in coming weeks. Lets get placed and then think about either moving or not.
Friday, August 12, 2005
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
Love and Sex
So whats up my boy ...
I watched the movie ( I am hearing to the songs of it also now)
I liked it very much not because I am a saif's fan or anything but the love
and passion of the movie. Why do such movies dont come in tamil these days.
The heroine vidya balan was too good to say the least and the way the love was picturised was cool.
Ya in the film they never say "I love you" to each other. It may sound very weird but thats the truth . I firmly believe in this concept if u love somebody and the other one also loves you then there are no place for words in between. I mean "I love you" is not the way you will convey the love to someone that you sincerely love.
In the movie they never know that they are in love with each other but they realise in time and when both finally realise it they dont have words to express there feelings but yes they ...
Yes sex is the ultimate stage in love. I dont have any hard feelings sorry bad feelings for sex. Its just another feeling like hunger and should be satisfied when it happens to you otherwise you are dead.
There is a lot of jealousy and hatred in love. Yes u hate ur lover even talking with others and feel jealous when it happens. It happens and u will know when it happens.
But nowadays people are very much attracted to the so called "instant love"
ya this is love by sight and love that comes after checking the others money pocket ,savings .....
This will never last.I dont believe in this . If you are in bed with your lover and suddenly feel that I am with him because of his money .... and others only . Then you are damned.
Sex is something pure to me ...I mean I am being true to myself.
I mean you should not lie to your own mind. thats where all trouble starts. Just like the feelings of Hunger and Angry comes to you when the situation rise sex should happen by the way nature prefers. But nowadays people have timetables for Sex as to when we should have.
Even doctors say your body is a good indicator of your health and the body will inform you when you should eat by bringing out the hunger in you.
I I leave it here to everyone that Sex and Love are feelings intervined within each other Dont try to separate them. Have sex with only one whom you really love. And if you love somebody you need not express itself .... the other will automatically know. If you both dont know it automatically then you are not in Love.
I watched the movie ( I am hearing to the songs of it also now)
I liked it very much not because I am a saif's fan or anything but the love
and passion of the movie. Why do such movies dont come in tamil these days.
The heroine vidya balan was too good to say the least and the way the love was picturised was cool.
Ya in the film they never say "I love you" to each other. It may sound very weird but thats the truth . I firmly believe in this concept if u love somebody and the other one also loves you then there are no place for words in between. I mean "I love you" is not the way you will convey the love to someone that you sincerely love.
In the movie they never know that they are in love with each other but they realise in time and when both finally realise it they dont have words to express there feelings but yes they ...
Yes sex is the ultimate stage in love. I dont have any hard feelings sorry bad feelings for sex. Its just another feeling like hunger and should be satisfied when it happens to you otherwise you are dead.
There is a lot of jealousy and hatred in love. Yes u hate ur lover even talking with others and feel jealous when it happens. It happens and u will know when it happens.
But nowadays people are very much attracted to the so called "instant love"
ya this is love by sight and love that comes after checking the others money pocket ,savings .....
This will never last.I dont believe in this . If you are in bed with your lover and suddenly feel that I am with him because of his money .... and others only . Then you are damned.
Sex is something pure to me ...I mean I am being true to myself.
I mean you should not lie to your own mind. thats where all trouble starts. Just like the feelings of Hunger and Angry comes to you when the situation rise sex should happen by the way nature prefers. But nowadays people have timetables for Sex as to when we should have.
Even doctors say your body is a good indicator of your health and the body will inform you when you should eat by bringing out the hunger in you.
I I leave it here to everyone that Sex and Love are feelings intervined within each other Dont try to separate them. Have sex with only one whom you really love. And if you love somebody you need not express itself .... the other will automatically know. If you both dont know it automatically then you are not in Love.
Monday, August 01, 2005
A day 0801
Seems the day started very bad but ended in a good note.
My project associate is still sick and will not be able to come to work.I am still working in place of him. Seems my company is impressed with my work atlast and thought I should be rewarded.So I got the SPOT award. Atlast I thought something to cheer.Again my application testing worked fine and fine. Status (Project) as of today is great.
Everyone was there with me greeting me. But u know I was not there at the townhall.I was busy testing and had switched by outlook off? shame on me I am working too hard that I am not able to get my prize in person.
Thats ok. Life moves with it.
Anyway cool this day went on fine. Also I have to start preparing for my Interviews> I have got a lots of advice. i have to implement them. Hope God gives me enough strength to learn things faster.
My project associate is still sick and will not be able to come to work.I am still working in place of him. Seems my company is impressed with my work atlast and thought I should be rewarded.So I got the SPOT award. Atlast I thought something to cheer.Again my application testing worked fine and fine. Status (Project) as of today is great.
Everyone was there with me greeting me. But u know I was not there at the townhall.I was busy testing and had switched by outlook off? shame on me I am working too hard that I am not able to get my prize in person.
Thats ok. Life moves with it.
Anyway cool this day went on fine. Also I have to start preparing for my Interviews> I have got a lots of advice. i have to implement them. Hope God gives me enough strength to learn things faster.
Friday, July 29, 2005
Freedom Fighters or Terrorist
The below letter was a Forward I received. Though FWs are like advise in software industry.the come in free and in large Quantity.But this one was different.I had a lot of Questions after that and started to realise how great gandhiji is.The FW is as follows.
I'm sending this letter to the British people and in particular to the residents of London. For a period of hours, you have lived through moments of desperate anxiety and horror. In those hours you lost a member of your family or a friend, and we wish to tell you in total honesty that we too grieve when human lives pass away. I cannot tell you how much we hurt when we see desperation and pain on the face of another person. For we have lived through this situation - and continue to live through it every day - since your country and the United States formed an alliance and laid plans to attack Iraq.
The Prime Minister of your country, Tony Blair, said that those who carried out the explosions did so in the name of Islam. The Secretary of State of the United States, Condaleezza Rice, described the bombings as an act of barbarism. The United Nations Security Council met and unanimously condemned the event.
I would like to ask you, the free British people, to allow me to inquire: in whose name was our country blockaded for 12 years? In whose name were our cities bombed using internationally prohibited weapons? In whose name did the British army kill Iraqis and torture them? Was that in your name? Or in the name of religion? Or humanity? Or freedom? Or democracy?
What do you call the killing of more than two million children? What do you call the pollution of the soil and the water with depleted uranium and other lethal substances?
What do you call what happened in the prisons in Iraq - in Abu Ghraib, Camp Bucca and the many other prison camps? What do you call the torture of men, women, and children? What do you call tying bombs to the bodies of prisoners and blowing them apart? What do you call the refinement of methods of torture for use on Iraqi prisoners - such as pulling off limbs, gouging out eyes, putting out cigarettes on their skin, and using cigarette lighters to set fire to the hair on their heads? Does the word "barbaric" adequately describe the behavior of your troops in Iraq?
May we ask why the Security Council did not condemn the massacre in al-Amiriyah and what happened in al-Fallujah, Tal'afar, Sadr City, and an-Najaf? Why does the world watch as our people are killed and tortured and not condemn the crimes being committed against us? Are you human beings and we something less? Do you think that only you can feel pain and we can't? In fact it is we who are most aware of how intense is the pain of the mother who has lost her child, or the father who has lost his family. We know very well how painful it is to lose those you love.
You don't know our martyrs, but we know them. You don't remember them, but we remember them. You don't cry over them, but we cry over them. Have you heard the name of the little girl Hannan Salih Matrud? Or of the boy Ahmad Jabir Karim? Or Sa'id Shabram?
Yes, our dead have names too. They have faces and stories and memories. There was a time when they were among us, laughing and playing. They had dreams, just as you have. They had a tomorrow awaiting them. But today they sleep among us with no tomorrow on which to wake.
We don't hate the British people or the peoples of the world. This war was imposed upon us, but we are now fighting it in defense of our selves. Because we want to live in our home as human being, which the coalition force as not letting us, they take our sisters and mothers when ever they want them, they shoot our fathers and brothers when ever they find fun on them, you know how is the American & British military deals with us, just as dirt, they are not here to liberate us, at least with my simple brain I can understand that, they deal with us as enemies. - We want the free land of Iraq - and to live as we want to live, not as your government or the American government wish.
Let the families of those killed know that responsibility for the Thursday morning London bombings lies with Tony Blair and his policies. Stop your war against our people! Stop the daily killing that your troops commit! End your occupation of our homeland!
Iman al-Saadun
Friday, 8 July 2005.
Mal Harrisu
Following questions arise in my mind.
1. Would gandhiji be called a terrorist if He had failed in our freedom struggle.
2. Would Hitler be hailed as a hero if he won the WorldWar 2.
Guys do send me your comments on this.
I'm sending this letter to the British people and in particular to the residents of London. For a period of hours, you have lived through moments of desperate anxiety and horror. In those hours you lost a member of your family or a friend, and we wish to tell you in total honesty that we too grieve when human lives pass away. I cannot tell you how much we hurt when we see desperation and pain on the face of another person. For we have lived through this situation - and continue to live through it every day - since your country and the United States formed an alliance and laid plans to attack Iraq.
The Prime Minister of your country, Tony Blair, said that those who carried out the explosions did so in the name of Islam. The Secretary of State of the United States, Condaleezza Rice, described the bombings as an act of barbarism. The United Nations Security Council met and unanimously condemned the event.
I would like to ask you, the free British people, to allow me to inquire: in whose name was our country blockaded for 12 years? In whose name were our cities bombed using internationally prohibited weapons? In whose name did the British army kill Iraqis and torture them? Was that in your name? Or in the name of religion? Or humanity? Or freedom? Or democracy?
What do you call the killing of more than two million children? What do you call the pollution of the soil and the water with depleted uranium and other lethal substances?
What do you call what happened in the prisons in Iraq - in Abu Ghraib, Camp Bucca and the many other prison camps? What do you call the torture of men, women, and children? What do you call tying bombs to the bodies of prisoners and blowing them apart? What do you call the refinement of methods of torture for use on Iraqi prisoners - such as pulling off limbs, gouging out eyes, putting out cigarettes on their skin, and using cigarette lighters to set fire to the hair on their heads? Does the word "barbaric" adequately describe the behavior of your troops in Iraq?
May we ask why the Security Council did not condemn the massacre in al-Amiriyah and what happened in al-Fallujah, Tal'afar, Sadr City, and an-Najaf? Why does the world watch as our people are killed and tortured and not condemn the crimes being committed against us? Are you human beings and we something less? Do you think that only you can feel pain and we can't? In fact it is we who are most aware of how intense is the pain of the mother who has lost her child, or the father who has lost his family. We know very well how painful it is to lose those you love.
You don't know our martyrs, but we know them. You don't remember them, but we remember them. You don't cry over them, but we cry over them. Have you heard the name of the little girl Hannan Salih Matrud? Or of the boy Ahmad Jabir Karim? Or Sa'id Shabram?
Yes, our dead have names too. They have faces and stories and memories. There was a time when they were among us, laughing and playing. They had dreams, just as you have. They had a tomorrow awaiting them. But today they sleep among us with no tomorrow on which to wake.
We don't hate the British people or the peoples of the world. This war was imposed upon us, but we are now fighting it in defense of our selves. Because we want to live in our home as human being, which the coalition force as not letting us, they take our sisters and mothers when ever they want them, they shoot our fathers and brothers when ever they find fun on them, you know how is the American & British military deals with us, just as dirt, they are not here to liberate us, at least with my simple brain I can understand that, they deal with us as enemies. - We want the free land of Iraq - and to live as we want to live, not as your government or the American government wish.
Let the families of those killed know that responsibility for the Thursday morning London bombings lies with Tony Blair and his policies. Stop your war against our people! Stop the daily killing that your troops commit! End your occupation of our homeland!
Iman al-Saadun
Friday, 8 July 2005.
Mal Harrisu
Following questions arise in my mind.
1. Would gandhiji be called a terrorist if He had failed in our freedom struggle.
2. Would Hitler be hailed as a hero if he won the WorldWar 2.
Guys do send me your comments on this.
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
Troy
Once one of my friend was too pandu that he doesnt know many things (important) about life ???????
yes very important things in life.
I thought of enlightening him. Since I was a Biology student in my Higher secondary and was also a
expert? in mugging up the same I had remembered something.
So I started to explain him in the below mails
-----Original Message-----
From: Jack
Sent:
To: Jill
Subject: RE: I am coming to Bangalore
Let me explain the full complete flow.
The male (ie testes of man )is able to produce lakhs and lakhs of sperms and can do it continuosly ........ really powerfull
And female will be able to pruduce 1 or 2 and record breaking 8 eggs in 28 days.
See the diffrence yar ......... its great really considering u can produce lakhs / minutes.
So the first step is producing the cells for fertilisation.
When they are ready they should be brought in contact ....... because there is no wireless communication in such a process.
Also fertilisation in mammals is just a process of a sperm breaking the ovums(female) wall which the hardest to break ........ I mean really hard. And then the fusion of 23 chromoses of male with 23 of female.
That’s it process completed.
But why do we need 6000 cells u may ask ???????/
Will continue in next mail
-----Original Message-----
From: Jack
Sent:
To: Jill
Subject: RE: I am coming to Bangalore
Ok coming back to where I left ............................
This fertilisation process can be compared to a helen of troy story.
Helen is the ovum cell which is present inside protected behind the great walls of troy ..........
But here the difference is helen is a product of troy.
Now lets get into the war .
For the war a single hero is not enough but a single heroine (women) is enough to create a war .....
Now that the soldiers are ready ... these soldiers must be transported to the vaginal tract ........ this is what u do with lot of fuss ..........
Transportation is what we know as the intercourse ...........
But many doesn’t know that we have just transported and the war is yet to begin...........
Now where does this war happen ...............
In the uterus ........... uterus is a bulk portion ........ Its in the centre of a canal whos one end is vaginal canal through which our heros enter and the other end of the canal is the ovary ....... where ovum is generated ............
And again this war cannot happen at any time ..........
Sorry in other words there is a probabality of winning the heroine only if the heroine is present.........
There lies the biggest trick .................
Herione is avilable only during particular days and heroes should attack during those days .......
Yes durin the mestural cycle ........... first five das ovum is just produced and not ready for fertilisation .............. so no use of ur strength ......... Ur attack will be of no use .......
(Female will also be not happy when u do on these days)
Again last 5 days of peak ....... i.e from 20 to 25 th day .........
The ovum is fertile and is vulnarable for attack ...............
What about 26 - 28 th days ......... (this is when the ovum which is not fertilised will be destroyed and will result in bleeding ) .....
So if u attack during this period ........ u willl be severily attacked by disease ........ No heroes for a year untill treated by doctor.
So when the attack happens at the right time ...............
20 th to 25 th day of mens tural cycle .........
Wil continue
-----Original Message-----
From: Jack
Sent: Monday, May 16, 2005 2:41 PM
To: Jill
Subject: RE: I am coming to Bangalore
SO we know when we can attack ....
Where we can attack and
Next important thing is one hero cannot break this great wall ......... but many men effort is required ...........
But only one man will succeed..........
So it’s a totally unfair war ........... where lakhs of people fight equally for one destiny but still only on attain the glory ..........
Lets see the real war ..........
As the sperm enters the vaginal tract .... it knows the direction it has to move .....(I have no idea why it moves towards ovum) ...........
I think its random motion and those men who travel wrongly ................
Ok so as the sperm strike the canal ......... ( little correction ........ actually when u feel the great joy of releasing ur soldiers ..... same way the heroine is also release at the same time .............)
So both reach the uterus .......... where fight begins .............
All the heroes strike from all directions to destryo the wall and enter in...........
And the hero who enter in first is the real hero .......... and all other heros die..........
What a pity one mans dream is other men's death ...........
Yes this is how the war ends ..................
So to break tis wall u need atleast 6000 heroes .................
So now u got the point .
Heroes here in the sense ..... he must be strong ..... mobile .....
Everything .. so 6000 heroes to break a wall ..............
Again the after war events will decide whether the war was successful ...........
For that u should do nothing .................. actually nothing .......
If u try to do something it may spoil the party .......
--end of mails--
this was his big reply for all the mails
-----Original Message-----
From: Jill
Sent: Monday, May 16, 2005 2:41 PM
To: Jack
Subject: RE: I am coming to Bangalore
Mega serials are never more successful than short and crisp ones.
See you should have realized that.
--end of mail --
yes very important things in life.
I thought of enlightening him. Since I was a Biology student in my Higher secondary and was also a
expert? in mugging up the same I had remembered something.
So I started to explain him in the below mails
-----Original Message-----
From: Jack
Sent:
To: Jill
Subject: RE: I am coming to Bangalore
Let me explain the full complete flow.
The male (ie testes of man )is able to produce lakhs and lakhs of sperms and can do it continuosly ........ really powerfull
And female will be able to pruduce 1 or 2 and record breaking 8 eggs in 28 days.
See the diffrence yar ......... its great really considering u can produce lakhs / minutes.
So the first step is producing the cells for fertilisation.
When they are ready they should be brought in contact ....... because there is no wireless communication in such a process.
Also fertilisation in mammals is just a process of a sperm breaking the ovums(female) wall which the hardest to break ........ I mean really hard. And then the fusion of 23 chromoses of male with 23 of female.
That’s it process completed.
But why do we need 6000 cells u may ask ???????/
Will continue in next mail
-----Original Message-----
From: Jack
Sent:
To: Jill
Subject: RE: I am coming to Bangalore
Ok coming back to where I left ............................
This fertilisation process can be compared to a helen of troy story.
Helen is the ovum cell which is present inside protected behind the great walls of troy ..........
But here the difference is helen is a product of troy.
Now lets get into the war .
For the war a single hero is not enough but a single heroine (women) is enough to create a war .....
Now that the soldiers are ready ... these soldiers must be transported to the vaginal tract ........ this is what u do with lot of fuss ..........
Transportation is what we know as the intercourse ...........
But many doesn’t know that we have just transported and the war is yet to begin...........
Now where does this war happen ...............
In the uterus ........... uterus is a bulk portion ........ Its in the centre of a canal whos one end is vaginal canal through which our heros enter and the other end of the canal is the ovary ....... where ovum is generated ............
And again this war cannot happen at any time ..........
Sorry in other words there is a probabality of winning the heroine only if the heroine is present.........
There lies the biggest trick .................
Herione is avilable only during particular days and heroes should attack during those days .......
Yes durin the mestural cycle ........... first five das ovum is just produced and not ready for fertilisation .............. so no use of ur strength ......... Ur attack will be of no use .......
(Female will also be not happy when u do on these days)
Again last 5 days of peak ....... i.e from 20 to 25 th day .........
The ovum is fertile and is vulnarable for attack ...............
What about 26 - 28 th days ......... (this is when the ovum which is not fertilised will be destroyed and will result in bleeding ) .....
So if u attack during this period ........ u willl be severily attacked by disease ........ No heroes for a year untill treated by doctor.
So when the attack happens at the right time ...............
20 th to 25 th day of mens tural cycle .........
Wil continue
-----Original Message-----
From: Jack
Sent: Monday, May 16, 2005 2:41 PM
To: Jill
Subject: RE: I am coming to Bangalore
SO we know when we can attack ....
Where we can attack and
Next important thing is one hero cannot break this great wall ......... but many men effort is required ...........
But only one man will succeed..........
So it’s a totally unfair war ........... where lakhs of people fight equally for one destiny but still only on attain the glory ..........
Lets see the real war ..........
As the sperm enters the vaginal tract .... it knows the direction it has to move .....(I have no idea why it moves towards ovum) ...........
I think its random motion and those men who travel wrongly ................
Ok so as the sperm strike the canal ......... ( little correction ........ actually when u feel the great joy of releasing ur soldiers ..... same way the heroine is also release at the same time .............)
So both reach the uterus .......... where fight begins .............
All the heroes strike from all directions to destryo the wall and enter in...........
And the hero who enter in first is the real hero .......... and all other heros die..........
What a pity one mans dream is other men's death ...........
Yes this is how the war ends ..................
So to break tis wall u need atleast 6000 heroes .................
So now u got the point .
Heroes here in the sense ..... he must be strong ..... mobile .....
Everything .. so 6000 heroes to break a wall ..............
Again the after war events will decide whether the war was successful ...........
For that u should do nothing .................. actually nothing .......
If u try to do something it may spoil the party .......
--end of mails--
this was his big reply for all the mails
-----Original Message-----
From: Jill
Sent: Monday, May 16, 2005 2:41 PM
To: Jack
Subject: RE: I am coming to Bangalore
Mega serials are never more successful than short and crisp ones.
See you should have realized that.
--end of mail --
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