Aug 15

Life has come to a place where we have chose between choices and I have made really bad choices in the past which has badly affected me. Again I dont know whether it has badly affected which is a relative term and there is always a other side. I mean "road not taken". Anyhow life is great and I feel happy for whatever happened.

Now its time to make a decision whether I am going to stay in my company or not. I am in that part of my career where I am bored of the work that I do which I was struggling to do some 12 months back.I learnt a lot of things from this company. true I like the people in this company but not the work. they cant also help it as thats the only work available here.

Now now I am at a place where I am a big guy in the company i have regnition from everyone in this company and they want me to travel onsite. Now the problem is that I dont have patience. There are no big projects at present. I dont see any new project coming in the near future.

But ya there may be a cool project which is in the pipeline. But I am not ready to wait. because I am not sure whether I will land in the right project. Future is not clear but present is clear.

Anyway I am going to attend interview for another company. I think I will probably get placed there and lets think after getting placed in that.

You may ask why ? "You should always be prepared to leave ur company" Ya till last year I was doing just the job that they wanted me to do. I learned a lot and afterwards got bored with that. But with this interviews it has become more interesting. I started to learn Technically many things and stared to learn.

I see myself becoming confident of my technical ability nowadays. I think this is taking my life to a new interesting level. I like it and I think this will improve me. So I have decided to learn things outside my company and lets develop ourselves for bigger challenges.

Ya Interviews and this job search is what is making my life interesting. which would have been bored by this routine work. I have this inertia problem I cant stop working after friday evening and I dont want to go to work on monday morning. I think the latter is normal while the former is not. I can do this obring thing innlife for even 2 days.

So I have decided to improve myself and the motivation would be the interviews scheduled for me in coming weeks. Lets get placed and then think about either moving or not.

Love and Sex

So whats up my boy ...
I watched the movie ( I am hearing to the songs of it also now)
I liked it very much not because I am a saif's fan or anything but the love
and passion of the movie. Why do such movies dont come in tamil these days.
The heroine vidya balan was too good to say the least and the way the love was picturised was cool.

Ya in the film they never say "I love you" to each other. It may sound very weird but thats the truth . I firmly believe in this concept if u love somebody and the other one also loves you then there are no place for words in between. I mean "I love you" is not the way you will convey the love to someone that you sincerely love.

In the movie they never know that they are in love with each other but they realise in time and when both finally realise it they dont have words to express there feelings but yes they ...

Yes sex is the ultimate stage in love. I dont have any hard feelings sorry bad feelings for sex. Its just another feeling like hunger and should be satisfied when it happens to you otherwise you are dead.

There is a lot of jealousy and hatred in love. Yes u hate ur lover even talking with others and feel jealous when it happens. It happens and u will know when it happens.

But nowadays people are very much attracted to the so called "instant love"

ya this is love by sight and love that comes after checking the others money pocket ,savings .....

This will never last.I dont believe in this . If you are in bed with your lover and suddenly feel that I am with him because of his money .... and others only . Then you are damned.

Sex is something pure to me ...I mean I am being true to myself.

I mean you should not lie to your own mind. thats where all trouble starts. Just like the feelings of Hunger and Angry comes to you when the situation rise sex should happen by the way nature prefers. But nowadays people have timetables for Sex as to when we should have.

Even doctors say your body is a good indicator of your health and the body will inform you when you should eat by bringing out the hunger in you.

I I leave it here to everyone that Sex and Love are feelings intervined within each other Dont try to separate them. Have sex with only one whom you really love. And if you love somebody you need not express itself .... the other will automatically know. If you both dont know it automatically then you are not in Love.

A day 0801

Seems the day started very bad but ended in a good note.
My project associate is still sick and will not be able to come to work.I am still working in place of him. Seems my company is impressed with my work atlast and thought I should be rewarded.So I got the SPOT award. Atlast I thought something to cheer.Again my application testing worked fine and fine. Status (Project) as of today is great.

Everyone was there with me greeting me. But u know I was not there at the townhall.I was busy testing and had switched by outlook off? shame on me I am working too hard that I am not able to get my prize in person.

Thats ok. Life moves with it.

Anyway cool this day went on fine. Also I have to start preparing for my Interviews> I have got a lots of advice. i have to implement them. Hope God gives me enough strength to learn things faster.